What significant things have I done today?

[Opsa]

I am cleaning up my space. This used to be my art studio, but over the years it has been overrun with papers and theatrical supplies. I have costumes and props and makeup all over the place, but I have made a vow to do at least one thing per day to clean it up, even if it is just deciding to throw away one piece of paper. Little by little I am making progress.

This is helping me clear my head, too. Today I found a pile of printed correspondence from a crummy boss I had a few years ago. I held on to it because she was so vindictive I was afraid that she would sue me, but I got out of there as cleanly as possible, and now that it's been over five years I think I can let it go. Re-reading the missives (only to a point- to see what they were) was mildly upsetting, but tossing them in the trash felt freeing. I am out of that grip of grief.

I am putting away the theater stuff that I had worked so hard to collect. I have been holding on to it out of sheer stubbornness. It was mine! But yesterday the Community Center sent me an email asking me to teach theater there again this year (they would have total control of days and hours, I would have crummy pay and I'd have to take the county orientation all over again) and do the Halloween Haunted House. Last year I would have felt that I must answer right away, and would have given a vague answer because I was not sure- an answer that could have been twisted to their favor. This year I plan to stop and wait and think before answering. I gave myself time to realize that I was killing myself for the theater and that heck no, I didn't want to do it again. Not even a little bit, sometimes. So just now I respectfully declined their offers. I am cutting myself free of something in which I had entangled myself.

I want this to be an art studio again. It will take me a while to get rid of all the distractions and focus on exploring art again, but if I chip away a little each day I will get there.

I have done so much wrong, but it's all in the past where I can no longer reach. So, it's time to go forward again. The first step is letting go.

[Bruder Cuzzen]

I am pressing the " Like" button repeatedly Opsa . The past number of years have been a nightmare and it is not ending . I am trying cast off the so called friends as well the needy dishonest family members .
I am learning harsh lessons and hope i can pass furture tests . I do not remember the last time i felt happy .

[Griffin NoName]

That's so sad BC. But I can understand. Life does not always take us where we want to go. When I got ill, I learnt to cast off those who drained me.

[Bruder Cuzzen]

Hi Griff !

I am beginning to cast away the toxic people that plague me , it has not been as easy as i hoped but i feel i am making some progress .

I hope tomorrow brings better things .
I have moved into a new flat , i don't know if i can afford to keep it , unless i rent out the other rooms , which i want to do because it is lonely .

[Opsa]

Hugging you back, BC!

You and Griffin are right about letting the bad stuff go.

I've been thinking about it, and I think that certain people like us tend to think there's something wrong with us when people are not so nice to us. First we blame them and then we flog ourselves. We can waste a lot of life suffering over toxic relationships. They really demand (suck) a lot energy from us, and we have so many other things that are quite clearly better for us to do.


POSITIVE ENERGY HUG!!!

Letting go of the carp to welcome the worthwhile!

[Aggie]

I have moved into a new flat , i don't know if i can afford to keep it , unless i rent out the other rooms , which i want to do because it is lonely .

Good housemates are a treasure.  I wish you great luck in finding good people to share your space with.

[roystonoboogie]

I did two things today:

I sacked a sound engineer. He is supposed to be editing,  mixing and mastering twelve tracks for my band. Today he sent me the first three, and they were rubbish. Drums too big and boomy (he's a drummer), no noticeable equalisation to separate the instruments, no use of stereo whatsoever ("But mono was good enough for The Beatles", "This is not 1963, you are not George Martin"), and Whit-Nae-Talent levels of reverb plastered all over it. He's never going to get this right, so he's getting his books.

I also applied for a job with Citizens Advice Bireau. Cut in pay, not such a good 'package' all in, but it's a 20 minute commute each way, not a 90 minute commute each way. Subtract the cost of diesel and wear-and-tear on both car and sanity, I think it works out...

[Griffin NoName]

Both seem like sound (ho ho) decisions!

[Opsa]

Yegads. I once had a bass player mix for a band I was in. Same problem- all bass! Hope the new job works out well for you, Roy.

The most significant thing I did today was to Skype for the very first time with Griffin! It was really neat to finally be able to do so.

I'm not a big phone talker (so don't worry- I won't bombard you by any means if you join the Skype Rocks group), but to see and hear my good Sibling was great. We chatted a little, showed off our earrings to each other, it was nice. Thanks, Griffin!

[roystonoboogie]

Just introduced my dad to Skype at the age of 79. We have family in Australia, and other family and friends in remote parts of Highland Scotland. You get a better connection to Melbourne than you do to Mallaig.

[Aggie]

Got my (soon to be ex-) boss to agree to sign my resignation agreement, got a full-time bartending job at the best pub in town, and got waved at by the fiddler I had a crush on last year. Not in that order.

[Opsa]

Oooh! May the year of the horse be sweet for you!

[Sibling Zono (anon1mat0)]

Had my car airbag sensor replaced (it was faulty). Something tells me that it isn't fully right but I'll have to monitor it for a bit before I go back to the dealer.

[Aggie]

That's one piece of the car you don't want faulty... especially a false positive!

Oooh! May the year of the horse be sweet for you!

Almost everyone I know got bucked hard over the transition. It's been a strange, difficult little week. Some are crediting the fact that there were two new moons in January - the black and blue moon.

[Opsa]

Is that why we're feeling so black and blue?